Wednesday 21 January 2015

Battles


I'm sorry I'm only just here...
I've logged on a dozen times..replying and reading occasionally, I just couldn't write.
I wanted to just the words weren't formed right on my head...and to be honest I'm a bit lost
I thought logging in would keep my feet in the water now I'm paddling with nowhere to go...
This post is asking a little on us and a lot on advice. ..
I know bloggers can give advice....geez I've seen loads of sexual help pages...but mine isn't sexual...
A bdsm lifestyle isn't all about sex surely. ..well our sex life isn't the issue...I'm not even sure if it is an actual issue or whether it's me and my mind is blowing everything out of proportion :/
My mind is a daily battle....me against my inner chimp...maybe that's why I feel like my submission is failing..

So advice....

I feel as though we're losing our way with our chosen lifestyle
Maybe our path is a bit murky or there's a wall down where we want to go....I don't know...
Metaphorically speaking we'd just jump over the wall and carry on but what happens if it wasn't the wall that was the problem in the first place and we were actually going the wrong way?
Too deep...
I'm sorry...anyway

We basically joined life's together in October and a few personal changes happened...We've got a young family...New arrangements. ..I get that life can get in the way of the things you want sometimes...
But October was nearly 5 months ago and I just don't feel like we're back on track....Our d/s lifestyle has gone..
I'm lost without guidance....I need submission in my life...It makes me feel normal....wanted....loved....needed...I want to earn my place...
We've spoken about it briefly....
He reckons it will come in time....I don't understand that. ..For me it's there to give...its waiting
I want to be patient. ...I want to understand where he is.
I love him completely and I am happy...extremely happy and I want us to work.

Which is why I'm here
I'm posting because I need some advice and this is where I hoped I'd find it

Thankyou

Parvelus X








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5 comments:

  1. Lea23 January 2015 at 11:15

    Any relationship takes work, D/s or otherwise. Sir and I moved in together 5 months ago also. And its been hard, so I understand.

    If you feel like you're ready to submit, is he ready to dominate? I'd wonder to him what it is that is holding him back. I'd let him know how unhappy you are. Bringing it all back at once can be very overwhelming. Maybe just add ONE thing at a time. Just one thing he can dominate you over, and go from there?

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  2. Unknown28 January 2015 at 21:28

    I think you should tell him exactly what you said above about being lost. Communication is always the key. And like Lea said, is he ready to dominate right now after the changes? One thing at a time.... You will come back steady and true.

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  3. mouse30 January 2015 at 08:18

    Communication is the single more important factor in any relationship, in a ttwd, it becomes much more important. Show him the post you wrote, if he hasn't seen it already. Talk about what you both like and maybe dislike about it all.

    Good luck,
    mouse

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  4. Pearl Necklace4 February 2015 at 18:43

    In agreement with the bloggers above. Journal TO him. Show him when your ready. Make him a cup of coffee and set it out for him, however you need to do it, do it.

    Communication can feel impossible when the fear of rejection is there. Sure the relationship overall may not be the rejection you fear, but the possibility of rejection of the submissive you is enough to keep even the best of sub's quiet.

    So very nice to have stumbled upon your blog. I look forward to seeing how your doing in the future!
    XOXO Pearl

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  5. Parvelus_Obedit5 February 2015 at 23:37

    I've replied each and every one of u ladies
    Thankyou so much for ur advice X

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